The nights that we stayed at your place I can still see shadows of your face It was all so perfect ****ing great Did I throw it all away The memories leave an aftertaste So Bittersweet Is it laced With depression and who I used to be I don't wanna live in this life anymore Its all tearing me apart breaking me to the bones I don't want to live a life where I'm mentally sore Every day n every night with no where to call home I wanna go back I was happy before Simple ass ****ing life I didn't care about my clothes Promises that where broken and trust that was sworn Now its all down the drain cuz I really didn't know I miss all my friends that left I got pains in my chest Every single ****ing night and I wish I could rest From the thoughts in my head Recalling every word that I've said Now I see I wasn't right, how the **** am I not dead (Your such a failure) (End it All) (How the **** am I not dead) (****) The world is ****ed And we all know it sucks What's the point to keep on going if we die while we run Our minds are corrupt And the love is disrupt Everyone is controlling with no souls we can trust Like shit I got cheated on like two ****ing times Lied and broken down when I looked into their eyes And I said id never harm a single ****ing human life Just for me go to sleep knowing that I wont be fine Broken hearts that wont be fixed Broken parts that make me sick Shooting stars that made my wish Now I look back at cuts on my wrist (**** what've I done) (I don't even know what to say anymore) (I guess if there's one thing I want people to hear its) I don't wanna live in this life anymore Its all tearing me apart breaking me to the bones I don't want to live a life where I'm mentally sore Every day n every night with no where to call home I wanna go back I was happy before Simple ass ****ing life I didn't care about my clothes Promises that where broken and trust that was sworn Now its all down the drain cuz I really didn't know I miss all my friends that left (MARCUS) I got pains in my chest Every single ****ing night and I wish I could rest From the thoughts in my head Recalling every word that I've said Now I see I wasn't right, how the **** am I not dead (Your such a failure) (End it All) (How the **** am I not dead) (****) (I don't wanna live in this life anymore) (Its all tearing me apart breaking me to the bones) (I don't want to live a life where I'm mentally sore) (Every day n every night with no where to call home) (I wanna go back I was happy before) (Simple ass ****ing life I didn't care about my clothes) (Promises that where broken and trust that was sworn) (Now its all down the drain cuz I really didn't know)