So Many So Many So many times I tried to leave So many times I've done shit that you wouldn't believe yeah So many times I was playing for keeps So many So many times I wore my heart on my sleeve I wear my heart on my sleeve They tell me I can't achieve Its hard to believe Its only a part of the dream You can't be part of the team You missed the boat Baby this ain't a joke Some wishing I fail Some wish that I fold Its all part of the smoke Its part of the show yeah I ain't the same This love ain't fake You know I'll never change Stay real not fake Just gotta maintain Stay real not fake yeah Trust me I'm doing okay.. You said I was leaving yeah But I never gave you a reason no It just wasn't appealing I was mentally bleeding yeah Poison in my body got me fiending yeah I was having hella trouble sleeping yeah I know you didn't mean it yeah (Baby I know) I just couldn't see it no