You don't know What's going on inside my head Most days I wake up And wished I was dead But I am too scared to do it myself Lord Knows that I need me some help Is it normal? To hate yourself How do I get away from me My brain don't let me be Every since I was little I was taught to stand up to bullies Don't be no punching bag Or let these people push me around So I stood my ground Went pound for pound With anybody that was talkin shit But I'm losing this battle Everyday this man I been dealing with He constantly critics me And tells me that I'm weak Makes me think I'm king Then pulls it right from under my feet How can I be so tough With him I can't be strong For over 30 years I've known him And we still don't get along Everywhere that Ive Went that muh ****er he follows He was there from the pipe To the bottle To the church and my sorrows From my high to the gravel From my home to my travels The bully Im talking about Is the one that My mind unraveled You don't know What's going on inside my head Most days I wake up And wished I was dead But I am too scared to do it myself Lord Knows that I need me some help Is it normal? To hate yourself How do I get away from me My brain don't let me be All this shit on my mind When I sleep Still get no peace My mental issues have me Always feeling beat I take this Zoloft But it still don't let me see That I can amount to anything Feeling down When I'm constantly up in my brain Am I insane Because I feel this way? Like everybody has a motive I'm just another game they play I always take what they say And then I twist it around Give me the gas and some matches Watch as I burn this shit down Cuz I'm impulsive as **** I always say I think But if I hate me so much Their feelings don't mean a thing I've hurt so many people thats close I dwell on my past I carry the weight Of the world on my shoulders And it's been whooping my ass You don't know What's going on inside my head Most days I wake up And wished I was dead But I am too scared to do it myself Lord Knows that I need me some help Is it normal? To hate yourself How do I get away from me My brain don't let me be