We looked down And hoped to see the bottom But I have no doubt That's where we are I made a choice To send you off, alone I wrote some words for no one I didn't wanna bury You or to build you up I was afraid to In case it left a mark When every instinct told me "That's enough" Thought I could brush it off Or could suppress it And head on back into the race But just surviving doesn't Mean you're healing Took me a while To see it that way I didn't wanna bury you Or to build you up I was afraid to In case it left a mark When every instinct told me "That's enough" And wouldn't it be just Like me to take it too far And wear my worry lines Like battle scars But it was real enough Real enough for us There is a spot In the corner of a garden To mark the departed And those who never started I've tried to face it sober The end of each October Eyes closed until you feel Both feet free from the ground And we won't come down