As im seeking through the valley with that underdog impression I wonder if the word life, is a real decoded message From the God's Man that odd Why would that be our lesson Wait I'm getting off topic, let me explain my intentions Hey its me Alan, let's **** the story for a minute I know this never happens, but talking yo shit ain't prohibit I don't need to always start the song rapping just so i can talk about my issues and wishes (can we just get down to business?) See? this the shit I just mentioned, No respect for my own name, this feels like a pensioned [**** you] I never wanna stop doing this, I wanna die with a good impression I don't wanna die in heaven (So here's the real question) How many times do I gotta write a bar to prove myself How many songs do I got to make to go say "GO **** YOURSELF" How many times do I have to go on and on so I could just r say- (How many do you want huh? HOW MANY?) So I'm just stuck And trapped I'm Trying Go Back Home Even if its not real place I don't wanna lose all my hope and Value that I've collected through the years, you know friendships, the lessons, the memories that forever make me tear Tier Tier Tier thru the fabric of reality so I can finally just disappear Get out of this shit hole we call a home From Extrovert to Introvert I'm Becoming more- [Listen] I don't need your disapproval, I can do it quick and smoother I don't need any new friends that are liars or abusers That come lying to my face, those are different type of users Old friends don't **** with me? I don't care, I ain't a loser So just sit back, relax, and just enjoy the music Don't need people worrying bout me, just remember I'm also human While your at it, when your talkin' to me, its an illusion Mask on (ON) Mask on (ON) I'm beginning to feel more lucid