Tried to live beautifully The World was cruel to me Never thought I'd see My Mama read my eulogy Joy comes in the morning Please don't no mourn me no more I'm standing one with Lord I'm crying to his feet It's the ones on Earth Who have to worry The hurt and pain Who have to bury guilt and shame that keeps occurring I'm in Heaven's gate Streets are paved with gold No longer broke or forsaken Sorry I let you break my soul What's the cost of feeling free? What's the cost of feeling free? I promise it ain't cheap World brought me to my knees Only haunted all my dreams Made a pawn out of a King What's the cost of feeling free? What's the cost of feeling free? My life I wasn't weak I wasn't timid Quite the opposite honestly Didn't speak on all my feelings All compiling inside of me Slept in peace In the asylum Thoughts fighting me, Violently All the while I'm in the dark Still showed you the light in me Hiding behind a smile While depression was closeted My regrets written down Filling all of my pockets with A grain of hope That grey days a go away But they stayed The flame and smoke became haze I might've been saved A long time ago I lost the receipt Put it in an envelope Sign sealed delivered it Backslid a little bit To feel any sense of happiness I tried to cope Wave of emotion would come And rock the boat Pride comes before the fall That knot in my throat I never untied it To ask for help I was dying For someone else To ask me Ask bout how I felt So I took it Upon myself (Forgive me) What's the cost of feeling free? What's the cost of feeling free? I promise it ain't cheap World brought me to my knees Only haunted all my dreams Made a pawn out of a King What's the cost of feeling free? What's the cost of feeling free? When you lose the will to fight Taking your life It won't suffice Give it time, Give it time And you'll find your inner peace And you'll finally be, free