This open cavity in my chest Like a heavy stone is sinking in I didn't know this was gonna be a test I wanna stop the party, think I'm bleeding from within Days go by but it's just a blur If I stay inside Will I miss my turn This time travel in the past Is making me sick I am not okay Think I'm coming undone I just want it to stop Just want it to stop I stare at the clock just want it to stop Just want it to stop I stare at the clock It's making me sick I wanna stop the party (It's making me sick, making me sick) See the curtains drop (Stop the party, stop the party) I need you to leave, I need you to stop (Think I've hit the bottom, think I've hit the bottom) I wanna stop the party (It's making me sick, making me sick) Think it was a flop (Stop the party, stop the party) ****ed if my reaction's over the top (Think I've hit the bottom, think I've hit the bottom) When the lights go out Will I find any relief Wasn't something they said but they're watching me Let me hit the pause button To feel the way I breathe Set a filter on the sun rays so they stop coming in I told my friends I couldn't make it Every picture on their walls will testify When I don't want to I have to fake it All this goddamn noise makes me wanna cry I wanna stop the party See the curtains drop I need you to leave, I need you to stop I wanna stop the party Think it was a flop ****ed if my reaction's over the top I'm sorry I'm not poetic, I tried to hide the meaning I'd rather sound pathetic than silence what I'm feeling I'm sorry I'm not poetic, I tried to hide the meaning I'd much rather disappear No I don't want your pity The walls are closing in Can't breathe out I can't breathe in Insecurities within Put a knife beneath my chin