What am I doing, digging a hole So deep, so deep What am I doing, hurting my soul I need, to be free You gave me time to fall for you I think it's your eyes that let me loose I hope it's not lies that clamp me to you I feel like I'm tied to what you do You gave me time to fall for you I'm sorry I'll find the way to the your truth I feel like I tried to get a clue But every goodbye just colors me blue Is it you, or is it me Yea lets just talk, even if it's cheap It's expensive to trust, but I got a couple ones, the last one took a ton, so I'm sorry for the lack of funds I wish I had more to give I wish we could take a trip I wish we had time to split I wish I didn't give a shit About some problems that are not my own Its like I, borrow my own energy as a loan And pay it to you, not ever paying me back Putting myself first is a characteristic I lack It's really a curse, constantly under attack I am my own worst enemy it gets bad I kinda want my shit back Our friends say you're lame But that's just what they say I'm in so much pain (but) I trust that your tryna change You promise every day That this is worth the wait I really hope we don't waste, time I'll try to refrain, from Going ghost Or doing the most Like taking these drugs Until I comatose I've never felt like this I'm out of control I got a couple pills and a drink, lets have a toast What am I doing, digging a hole So deep, so deep What am I doing, hurting my soul I need, to be free What are you doing, it's taking a toll On me, on me What are we doing, it's getting cold We need, some sleep You gave me time to fall for you I think it's your eyes that let me loose I hope it's not lies that clamp me to you I feel like I'm tied to what you do You gave me time to fall for you I'm sorry I'll find the way to the your truth I feel like I tried to get a clue But every goodbye just colors me blue