It's just as I expected I've been sitting In my couch Thinking bout what will happen If everyone decides to go (If everyone decides to go) Sometimes I just curb and cry Knowing that they'll leave Even people that I know (Even people that I know) What will happen if you die They will fake the mourn And act as if they care (And act as if they care) I was born with this pain My anxiety is plain It is playing with my soul (It is is playing with my soul) Pain without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain It's all about pain (Mmm)My room full of tears Help me face these fears I've been popping pills All of these years Y'all look at my smile Ain't non of it real Ain't non of it real And imma tell you all the time Give me trust if you want mine Give me love that's not a crime Tell me what's the point if lying 'Cause I'm tired of faking it Tired of living with all of this pain I'm tired of acting fine Coz I know inside I ain't Double crossed so many times I will never be the same Back stabbed by my own friends Some break the code for fame But I'm used to all of this pain I'm used to all this drama I keep fighting for the better 'swear mama you'll see My hard work Pain without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain It's all about pain (Mmm)My room full of tears Help me face these fears I've been popping pills All of these years Y'all look at my smile Ain't non of it real Ain't non of it real Look into my smile Can't you see that it's all fake I've been screaming to be freed Please just help me(don't help me) Pain in my voice But i keep a smile on my face I am not a happy person I appear to be I've been dying inside Pain is all that I'm feeling I've been suicidal ever since i was 8 I've been talking to the devil He told me he waiting at the front gate (With his arms open) Look into my eyes can you see How much I'm terrified Always talk about my struggle Nobody willing to listen Over exaggeration Ghost you faking it You ain't meaning it Take my life today They'll read the text And start deleting it Pain without love Pain, I can't get enough Pain, I like it rough 'Cause I'd rather feel pain It's all about pain (Mmm)My room full of tears Help me face these fears I've been popping pills All of these years Y'all look at my smile Ain't non of it real Ain't non of it real I look up in the sky Could you please help me out I'm tired of feeling numb