Born in 93 Parents split in like 99 Dad cut moved to totty sides Brothers mum was in doddy sides Between the 3 tryna find myself Soo young and it was wild bro What's more ****ed is I'm 28 And all now I ain't found home So much shit I ain't spoke about And oh Lord how I've wanted to I act cool on my social apps But suffering in my solitude So much times I could've got killed myself And oh Lord how I wanted to Music saved me so many times Cool here's what we're gonna do This the last one The last mummy says that I'll ever make And I'm a say it all I'm a lay it bare I won't hesitate But if you hear something in this song You relate to and think it's ****ed Well just know that you're not alone I pray this song helps to lift you up So let's proceed My BM said she was pregnant Boy did I panic and shit I said she better have an abortion bro No way that your having my kid Went back and forth and argued Bare words full of anger and shit Said that she's doing it without or without me So I best pattern up quick Man I burnt the bridge I said she ain't trapping me is she ****ing sick? Ain't no girl gonna force me into fatherhood It is what it is Then September the 18th hit Day of my Westwood crib sesh Told the gang we gotta pattern up It's like 20 man on some big flex Getting changed, I collapsed bro Couldn't breathe, felt paralysed I try reach for my phone for an ambulance I get to it then that had died Now I'm laying there on death's door Mans barely breathing man can't move I'm home alone, my housemates are out I'm thinking the **** am I gonna do Then my door rings, one girl I linked come to get her stuff I'm screaming out, I need help, I can't move, the pains nuff like She found the spare key, called a ambulance, now it's A&E I got two drips in like both arms A gas mask just so I can breathe Doctors saying it ain't good It's best they contact my family And we ain't even spoke for some ****eries They're like sir can you unlock it please? Went to type, my phone buzz, a picture sent I could barely see It was a little girl, the message said she's here let's do paternity I said **** God gives bro and he takes away The same day that I shoulda died in that hospital My daughter came And at that point I thought about all that shit I said It wasn't a great Like how dare I say I didn't want my kid? I feel sick, it's my biggest shame But let's move on I survive g, a tough road but I made it back I try squash things with my daughters mum I said look I wanna be a dad I ain't tryna do all this back and forth about me and you, it isn't that So let's co parent, be cordial...but to her it just isn't that See there's nothing worse than a woman scorned Her bitterness it just wouldn't leave But 9 months without my support in that pregnancy? I get it g But what I didn't get? Is why she couldn't let it go for our daughter sake Cause when everything becomes tug of war All of us become losers mate It's just, big regrets Like what's hurting me at our kids expense Her anger's so blinding Like, she can't that this shit's so ments? But here's comes the switch Fights coming in fast and thick Said that she's doing it with or without me so I best pattern up quick And she burnt the bridge Now it's been 4 years I ain't seen my kid And it's been hell, I reach out, my bm says I should I burn in it She goes to feds with some ****ed story And gets me bagged on some hurtful shit And fans cuss about new music But no clue what mans hurdling I'm on a case for some sick lies Tryna figure out what this game is over? Then lawyers tell me I can't claim for no custody till that case it over On that case for like 2 years And all the pain is just taking over And mum tells me God only gives all the weight to his greatest soldiers Then Mummy Says 1 taken down Cah old friends become pagans now I found love and she turned fake I'm in a sunken place I can't make it out I had Cads die, Kyle die, Biz die, Naytz die, Toolz die, French die, Mum died, then my dad Died I only sleep when I'm mad fried Like if not I just lay wake There's so much shit I wanna ask God Like I know he don't make mistakes But God why me? Like why the pain? And why do I feel it constantly Like am I meant to be this sad? And Is this all that you want for me? Like will I ever see happiness? Cah life's just looking long for me But only God knows I guess wait and we're gonna see Nivz...