This isn't what I wanted I break my back for you My body's aching and my heart is too This sinking ship has sailed Threw myself over board I hope I find myself washed up on shore Can't help (and I can't help) How I'm feeling (how I'm feeling) And I want to Want to walk away I've got the guts to take the leap You've gotta trust that I can They don't know victory or defeat I'm staring out my window Watching the people rush If only I could give myself that push I gotta take a risk We'll burn our uniforms Break the ordinary, I'm so bored Can't help (and I can't help) How I'm feeling (how I'm feeling) And I want to Want to walk away I've got the guts to take the leap You've gotta trust that I can They don't know victory or defeat At least I'm pushing (pushing on) These things I'm holding on to Can't help (and I can't help) How I'm feeling (how I'm feeling) And I want to Want to walk away I've got the guts to take the leap You've gotta trust that I can They don't know victory or defeat What is it all about? I'm on the edge of a knife I gotta gotta get out