I get too caught up in playing dumb I admit to that There is more to life than feeling numb I admit to that Many **** ups at the hands of rum I admit to that Now I’m something of a loaded gun I admit to that No more angle fueled endeavors I’m tryna be patient Spent the last couple years around people who say shit Only for applause and social status Considered drilling their jaws shut To listen to the madness that they caused But, even then nobody accountable Shouting at the void Cause their stress insurmountable Now I understand the reasons Why perspective is powerful Once you earn it there is no return to simple living You must ride the wave until it crashes while finding comfort in the ashes But understand you gotta play the hand your given I’ve grown smitten with changing through phases By looking for home in new places Even when I do my best Things just don’t make sense But I’m honestly Learning more I’m learning about myself And honesty Passing judgement when it wasn’t needed I admit to that Throwing shade when you felt defeated I admit to that Self comparing led to me depleted I admit to that Acting selfish and a bit conceited I admit to that No more angle fueled endeavors I’m tryna be great Plucking out my feathers From the stress That’s something I make An effort to stop I’m waking up with some energy Cause serenity’s not Something you’re handed for doin ditto I stopped feel bad for myself Refuse to be second fiddle That person was broken, brittle and young But I earned my respect From words spit from my tongue When I swerve to the net I rise, Mac Mcclung These eyes have overcome Every challenged that I’ve faced I see a better future Where my struggles are erased There’s a place that I’m certain I can get it to And I when I do I never will forget who I am right now Even when I do my best Things just don’t make sense But I’m honestly Learning more I’m learning about myself And honesty