Why am I like this? And why do I do it every time? Make a narrative That isn’t true and lives in my mind I gaslight myself Into believing that he wants someone else And I’m just not the one God, I always feel like the villain Everytime, everytime As if I’m the only one who’s committing All these crimes, all these crimes But we’re both just as bad as each other We both love to hurt one another I always feel like a villain but I’m not this time Why do I do it As if it’s some sick game Play with a guys head As if I’m not the one to blame I mess with my head Until I feel sick In my stomach And that's not so fun God, I always feel like the villain Everytime, everytime As if I’m the only one who’s committing All these crimes, all these crimes But we’re both just as bad as each other We both love to hurt one another I always feel like a villain but I’m not this time And I still do it to myself, to myself Someone help me Do it to myself, to myself It’s not healthy Do it to myself, to myself I can’t help it, I can’t help it God, I always feel like the villain Everytime, everytime As if I’m the only one who’s committing All these crimes, all these crimes But we’re both just as bad as each other We both love to hurt one another I always feel like a villain but I’m not this time And I still do it to myself, to myself Someone help me Do it to myself, to myself It’s not healthy Do it to myself, to myself I can’t help it I can’t help it And I still do it to myself, to myself Someone help me Do it to myself, to myself It’s not healthy Do it to myself, to myself I can’t help it I can’t help it