Down bad with a really jealous personality Or maybe that's jus from my ex and that is not reality But I don't wanna take the chance so it's fine if you're mad at me No I don't care, you're not gonna get one word out of me Bite my neck and make me commit And make me feel like a piece of shit In the end, we both might love it The daylight I'm so sick of it I just wanna feel alive, and I don't with the sunlight Deep down I don't wanna die, with you I get too tongue tied I jus wanna live in the night, until the days fine Cus wouldn't it be nice, to forget it all and take flight There's a reason why I hermit, cus I'm always hurtin And why lie and say I'm fine like everybody's heard it I hate workin, and soul searchin I'd rather wait for a miracle to give me purpose My jaw is so misaligned Like the wires inside of my mind And they both bring pain but different kinds I wish surgery could fix both sides Why does everyone take my innocent heart and run with it They don't take me into account and they jus have fun with it I guess if my hearts on my sleeve, then there's a ton of risk But if I could change then I would, because I've had enough of it I ain't ever gonna apologize for me being myself I swear this lack of pussy is ****ing with (all) my mental health But I don't wanna go out, I just wanna hermit My heart is hot for love, like it's inside of a furnace It's been nearly burnin, but I got too much fear I'm scared to give my all, and allow someone else to steer I doubt they'll have the patience for me to be clear But know my intentions are (only) sincere I'll never do one wrong unless they gonna do me wrong And if they do, all I'm gonna do is write a couple songs My list of insecurities is getting kinda long But I've made it this far on my own (I guess) I'm kinda strong I feel this life doesn't fit me like a baggy shirt And like I'll never find true love like I have a curse My standards seem on par with a bag of dirt I think my foots out of the mud even though I've had it worse If my friends got me emotionally, and my toys got me sexually Then what's the ****ing point of looking for some shit that's temporary Or ****ing a body that's only gonna please me physically It's ****in with me mentally It's ****in with me mentally Weed makes me lazy, and caffeine makes me anxious But I hate being sober and I hate that life's so basic So other habits lately, have been all my replacements I wonder when it's over, when will this be painless