I never thought it would turn out this way... I never thought I would look like this... so many crises you gave me.. And I don't know if you know me... you live so far... and I live in an illusion... why am i like this... pretend to be fine... now anyone activates my triggers... and they don't know it... I never thought this would happen... shut up monsters... you do not know me... But I wanted you to know me... I don't know if it's just an illusion... But I know it's impossible for you to know me... What an idiot I wants send to you a ballon with my life... please see me... You created a lot of doubts in me... about me... You know I'm not the only one... torturing me... creating fantasies in my head... maybe we can meet... on a date maybe? what I'm saying is totally wrong... damn head that falls in love fast... many emotions cause an explosion... I think I'm so stupid... Damn life, you do not even know me... these feelings have been coming for a long time... but only now are they getting stronger... I think I'm stupid, and I know it's wrong... but it's not my fault... I think I'm stupid, I hate my self... so how could you love me? Crazy mind you do not know me... But I wanted you to know me... I don't know if it's just an illusion... But I know it's impossible for you to know me... What an idiot I wants send to you a ballon with my life... please see me... Pretending I'm enjoying it... pretending I'm someone else... speaking more and more lies... I just don't want to scare you... the chains are coming loose... and I'm revealing myself... I'm blooming and I want to stop... stop deceiving others, you like... you do not know me... But I wanted you to know me... I don't know if it's just an illusion... But I know it's impossible for you to know me... What an idiot I wants send to you a ballon with my life... please see me... Looking around looking for someone what I want, I wouldn't want it to happen either... classic history...