Wake up, eat shit, suppressing all the madness Limit my happiness cause I'm a problem magnet It happens, and sometimes I want to f****ng vanish Even though my intentions were pure. They look at me with malice, absorbing all the pain Like a mother f****ng cactus, I've never felt the same Been trynna to switch my axis, but this b***h f****ng came! I like you we should date, I'll fix you're f****ng pain I f****ng took the bait, and she passed through the gate We promised we won't lie, but oh god that shit fake She begging me to stay, but she wouldn't f****ng act right Calling out my name while her friends trynna act nice Never f****ng listen to a b***h with a red sight Now I feel like shit and my chest trynna find light I wished that you should die, but I love you at the same time I don't know what to break, f****ng b*****s with the gaslight I'm sorry, I think I skipped some context I was depressed and this b***h trynna f****ng connect my mind was in autopilot and my thinkin wasn't correct and each passing day, I'd been absorbing all the nonsense And I wake up, eat shit, suppressing all the madness Limit my happiness cause I'm a problem magnet It happens, and sometimes I want to f****ng vanish B***h I wanna f****ng vanish, this shit happen all the time Love dovey in the pms, now she left me f****ng crying Say you love me then you don't, then you act like its all fine Now you texting all my friends "f**k, I swear that he is lying" Deal with bullshit, man I'm losing motivation just to fight Now I feel it, its drilling my heart Feeling the feelings they're tearing apart Feel like I feel all the tears in my heart S**ke up the cigs till my lungs turning dark Now I feel like I feel the love again She found a lover and I'm treated like I'm just a friend I'm a f****ng loser, never get no love, I ain't never been respected She leaving me on read and now I'm hitting up my ex b***h My chest is f****ng tighting, I ghost the f****ng message That goes to f****ng show Ima f**k up, I ain't learn no lessons I just wanna f****ng pack a piece and blast my head open Red across my sheets my casket never opened and when the comes I can finally rest Just burn my f****ng body spread my ashes in the abyss