Last Christmas I was broken and hopeless Life fell apart and I think nobody noticed I asked too much of myself and I know it Need to give me a chance, need to be kind to myself, oh Can't keep on carrying this guilt That's deep inside me instilled How am I supposed to put up with it? Cause I never feel enough Never ending self-disgust What if my brain was just full of shit? I keep killing myself over things that I can't change Overthinking, I'm building my own cage Seeing clearly now, I'm master of my fate Whatever's written I'll just tear off the damn page I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head Wanna go out and live a little instead I can't keep waiting, I'll get sleep when I'm dead And if I'm thirsty drink the tears I've shed, ah Last summer, finally picked up the pieces And started living without needing a reason Floating around, unaware of the season Got my feet on the ceiling and I love this feeling Can't keep on carrying this guilt That's deep inside me instilled How am I supposed to put up with it? Cause I never feel enough Never ending self-disgust What if my brain was just full of shit? I keep killing myself over things that I can't change Overthinking, I'm building my own cage Seeing clearly now, I'm master of my fate Whatever's written I'll just tear off the damn page I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head Wanna go out and live a little instead I can't keep waiting, I'll get sleep when I'm dead And if I'm thirsty drink the tears I've shed, ah Oh, oh Oh, oh I can't keep blaming myself For the things I can't help Oh, oh Oh, oh Oh Got a million pounds on my chest And I never thought to ask for help But I've carried this weight for way too long Never thought that I could be enough Never felt worthy of the love And now I know that I couldn't have been more wrong I can't keep blaming myself For the things I can't help keep killing myself over things that I can't change Overthinking, I'm building my own cage Seeing clearly now, I'm master of my fate Whatever's written I'll just tear off the damn page I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head Wanna go out and live a little instead I can't keep waiting, I'll get sleep when I'm dead And if I'm thirsty drink the tears I've shed, ah