Staring into the mirror Confused at who stares back In my mind my childhood Was just yesterday, I swear Choices made every day Good or bad they happen If I had stayed with my dreams What if I hadn't given in Unending ego, I'm not the hero I am one of unclean lips Who have I become? How much more to endure Raging all I can in my fight Lying awake in dark rooms Sleep escapes me as I see back The under tow drags me away Self-loathing Turns to hate Seas of memories (Demons on my periphery) Have angels abandoned me My past like A stone monument It can never be Anything else Then what It has become Etched forever Are my deeds Cuneiform of regret Selfish reactions Stain my garments Dregs of the cup I drink To my fill As evil seeps in Pearls cast To swine This has to be the end Seas of memories (Demons on my periphery) Have angels abandoned me Have angels abandoned me I just want The pain to end Rope of misery I spun Knots bound tight Covering my sight I am lost From the light Stepping off One final prayer When I'm gone Leave me with the dead What more is there Life is suffering Close my Eyes Soul trembling! Suddenly appeared Blinding light Wrapped firmly By a pure love Burst forth From the silence An audible voice Be still and know that I am