In the wine aisle looking for a scapegoat Cuz my liver can handle what my heart won't And my mother wouldn't like that I'm drinking but it would kill her if she knew all the reasons so I turn off the lights turn on the tv no amount of melatonin's gonna make me sleep I hate my nighttime routine My head gets so ****in mean stressing about the future living in the past pretending I do but I don't know who I am I miss being 17 Before I lost my virginity Before I started to wonder if I was enough I didn't think twice now I think way too much Yeah I hate my nighttime routine adding steps in my skincare to keep me distracted tryna kill time cuz I don't feel attractive Can't get in bed without 10 different pillows I actually prefer all the noise out my window so I turn off the lights turn on the tv no amount of melatonin's gonna make me sleep Vibey singy posty thingy Reintro hook swear I'm okay and this won't last forever it's been good before so it's gotta get better I hate my nighttime routine My head gets so ****in mean stressing bout the future living in the past pretending I do but I don't know who I am I miss being 17 Before I lost my virginity Before I started to wonder if I was enough I didn't think twice now I think way too much Yeah I hate my nighttime routine