Sometimes I don't feel too safe On my ones it's like I can't trust myself But all now I've been doing This ting on my ones it's Like I can't ask for help Feel like I never found myself Cuz' now Eli's just stranded Sometimes I have to take a step back And sit down cuz' I just can't stand it I wonder what it feels Like to have no worries In this forsaken place I get a glimpse of it When I'm full of alcohol I never let it go to waste Goes down well With a couple of straights Gives me strength to lift weight But this forsaken place It's my home so I can't complain I am a sinner And I don't wanna sin again But lord forgive me Cuz' I'm probably gonna sin again Suicidal thoughts haunt my mind Cuz I'm searching for happiness I can't find Got some temptations I can't hide But I always try to do what I feel is right Yeah, yeah I always find peace in the rain Cuz' sometimes the sun's too blinding Sometimes I hate my old ways But sometimes I just don't mind it Now they wanna take me for a cunt Go on then, I beg you just try it Don't think that I'm soft just Cuz' I make some sad songs And I don't like fighting I've been skipping breakfast a lot But I always find time for dining I went down stairs that I never Climbed so now forever I'm climbing And sometimes I lose all motivation But I swear that I always find it I wonder if I'll see my shining Or have I just been blinded?