I got a lot less tolerance for my family It's like all they ever do is put more stress on me Twenty two I know they need to see a cheque from me Chasing dreams doesn't seem like it'll work for me They say they understand but the don't I know I don't even want to ask for anything no more Got a sister gave me a laptop to work from Every time we fight I remember where I got it from So much leverage over me I try to act accordingly so she don't take my life's work away from me Frustration just manifests in me I'm too young it's too much stress for me Now straight to blasphemy No respect for the book No respect for superman it's pretty clear he doesn't really see us It's pretty clear he doesn't really feel us It's pretty clear that he can't really help us And I don't need him to Mamaka says this is why I will never improve And she tells me that these words always hurt her too I love my mother this is why I gotta learn the truth I understand some now I'm trynna clarify it to her But it's so deep that I seem such and such to her I'm the reason that we suffer to her History is not a factor for her The fear of hell is such factor for us They have it tatted in us All these pallid stories in the book affect us We're flying blind they dictate the vectors Having conversations with people who can't comprehend us Retrospect's irrelevant when you're talking to true believers Indulgence in ignorance It's in human nature I can't hate you for it But I will judge you for it Especially when you speak on it and have no context in it I get about it I was like you about it (thaka tsago dia phanda) That's what my father tells me I feel useless lately Might be a bum or a true dead beat I hope the music saves me You see to me I have already made it But they need to see a cheque to concur it as a fact Success is validated by a cheque Conformity is a pest I hate living like the rest I hate believing and not knowing I hate that my mother doesn't ever get to rest I hate forced routines I hate business I hate schedules I hate greed I hate I hate I have a lot more tolerance for my family