Why are you breaking down I thought you wanna thrive You're so frustrating You keep ****ing up your life Don't you know That you're wasting time Getting ****ing high Killing youself trying Denying your own lies Your back has knives Your back has knives Your back has knives I'm ****ed up in my head Fantasizing, wishing I was dead People pointing that I'm fake I'm not even true to myself I ask for help but no One's giving it to me Couldn't give me what I need, yeah 'Cause I'm ****ed up in my head What would it be like when I'm dead? You got some problems You don't even talk about You're in your own asylum Giving yourself some doubt Asking for your freedom When you ****ing got it now You don't even look proud And you're already worn-out Playing victim, you're a fraud Give yourself some applause Self esteem is ****ing flawed Thinking if there's a god 7 years into the dark Since I said I'm gonna face it I couldn't escape it Now I embraced it I'm ****ed up in my head Fantasizing, wishing I was dead People pointing that I'm fake I'm not even true to myself I ask for help but no One's giving it to me Couldn't give me what I need, yeah 'Cause I'm ****ed up in my head What would it be like when I'm dead?