Re inventing myself like it’s a peter parker story But I do it too often like every 2 weeks and then scream for help because nobody understands me But its there fault they make me change myself I Sound narcissistic, but I don’t want to I need self care, but I don’t want to I need help this what my mind screams every second of every day But ask for it? I don’t want to I ain’t a weak bitch These wounds are bleeding But no ****er comes close to stitch Else im’ma bite (dog barking) I’ve been hit by too many cars at this point I don’t trust nobody Not even myself Trusting is a sign of weakness Or so I’m made to believe Look at what I’ve become I hate to believe Look at what you’ve become I’m made to believe “You shouldn’t have been born”, My mom said “You couldn’t have been more wrong”, dad said after my every life choice Then what’s the right choice? To give up and be a part of this ****ed up society Chhod du the thought of becoming an artist chhod du apni gayki Chhod du khudko dhundhna stage pe chhod du likhna shayri Par Phir kya fayda school me black board par thought of the day likhne ka ‘be honest’ Samaaj don’t want me to The people I grew up with don’t want me to And the people I met on my way also don’t To main sutta maar raha hu Maut ke baare me soch raha hu Kya wo rahat deti hai Kyunki ye made up rishte to nahi de paa rahe At times I’m scared of death At times maut ko gale lagana chahta hu Do I have ADHD par pata lage kaise? Main thodi na khud ke saath waqt bitana chahta hu Mujhe likhte hue ye sab sharm aa rahi hai What will people think of me? Am I too edgy? Am I mentally unstable? Am I hunting something that I will die in pursuit of as if I’m kraven I need some symbiote to stick to my skin and make me feel good jaise spiderman ko venom Well, I wait for the end look at the horizon and never find it So I re invent myself every two weeks to fit around the people I live Like it’s a peter parker story Yeah, Yeah, Yeah Saat Din KRRRRR PAW!