another day spent alone crawl back to bed to tune it out - static till i wake up again oh, what a waste of my veins an isolated event i guess the counter's overdue for another reset come home expecting a serotonin crash it just took one bad exchange and im on my way to relapse so with a shallow crevice, it's evident im f-cking amazing at letting you down if i clear my head and beg for forgiveness is that enough? and i vow silence does it make a difference if no one knows? i love you too much to tell you the truth so when i draw my blade, there's nothing we can do but "it'll be okay cause time heals all wounds" and ill be good as new when im waking up, i search for something new feel like im giving up, tie a knot, hang the noose i think im too f-cked up, can't decide what to do a ticking time bomb you cannot defuse So maybe I should [X] myself and go just end it all Cause I can't heal my wounds depressed with adderall Too many times, came close to watch my body fall I close my eyes as I pick up your call they tell me that i shouldn't jump f-ck it honestly i've had it enough hallucinating, I need your touch Isolated, I feel no love Feel my way through the darkness I'm pulling out; keep my conscious Level headed, still nauseous I'll keep it a buck, I came back from Signing a raincheck with Death in his office if i clear my head and beg for forgiveness is that enough? and i vow silence does it make a difference if no one knows? i love you too much to tell you the truth so when i draw my blade, there's nothing I can do but "it'll be okay cause time heals all wounds" and ill be good as new i can't even see, turn the lights down broken mirrors all around me, lookin at myself pop another pill just for my pain now shoot a bullet in my vein i blow my brains out sick of always clinging to a savior but this heart of mine has never learned to love itself temporary solace in the razor’s edge silent suffering, i don’t know how to ask for help (and i don't know how to help myself)