I think I got backwards seasonal depression Looking outside at the sun with the wrong impression Californias killing me Thought I’d never ever wanna leave Maybe there’s no such thing as the right direction Sitting in the sad is something I’ve been bad at I wait for it to pass till it comes back around again Oh you can see it in my hands Reflected in my skin And I know this won’t last forever But God I wish I was better When there’s too much on my mind Oh I try to blame it on the weather My heart wants to crack under pressure So why can’t I just let it When I try to fall apart I can’t help keeping it together I get stuck in my bed Can’t keep my house clean Sweeping things under the rug’s my idea of healing I put make up on my misery Cover it up so nobody sees To be terrified you’re alive is a dangerous feeling Oh sitting in the sad is something I’ve been bad at I wait for it to pass till it comes back around again Oh you can see it in my hands Reflected in my skin And I know this won’t last forever But God I wish I was better When there’s too much on my mind Oh I try to blame it on the weather My heart wants to crack under pressure So why can’t I just let it When I try to fall apart I can’t help keeping it together